My greatest fortune in life is being blessed with the kind of love I share with my husband and the kind of love I share with my twin sister. My heart was somehow created to love them both in ways I can't describe. I told my twin on my wedding day that my heart was made to grow bigger when I met my husband so I could always love her with all that I am - and it's true. With great love comes the great magnitude of feelings... so this chapter of my life has felt very new and left me navigating some sort of "heartbreak" after moving her into her new life 1,000 miles away from me. I know this may sound overdramatic to some, but our closeness and bond we have created over the last 28 years has made our love so strong, that it simply feels wrong to be living life so far from one another. The question is - is this actually God's plan for us? Is our closeness holding us back from certain things we are meant to discover separately?
...Or are we overthinking this and we are simply meant to live next door to each other and live happily ever after?
This last week came with more ups and downs than we bargained for. It started on a twin high while Megan and I road tripped down the coast and got to spend twenty hours listening to John Denver on repeat while scoping out coffee shops along the highway and watching pine trees slowly turn to oak trees covered in spanish moss. As we got closer and closer to twin's new home in Charleston, the excitement of the beautiful creative life that awaited her (and she worked SO HARD to get) started to feel muddled in my mind with the feelings of leaving her at the end of the week. I struggled with trying to be strong for her and completely losing it. We both had moments where we've never felt so low in our entire lives. These moments were mixed in with some of the most beautiful things that have ever surrounded us, too. It was a whirlwind of happy and sad. The two of us did such a great job being strong and focusing on the happy news for the month leading up to her move, that once it was time to actually face the feelings there were a LOT of feelings.
Despite the "Charleston blues" that I've been battling the last few days, something has become more and more clear to me each day - and it's that Charleston is exactly where you are meant to be, Meg. I honestly couldn't create a more heavenly place for a creative soul like yours. You deserve the 70 degree sunshine in January. You deserve all the hot little biscuits covered in pimento cheese. You deserve to actually pinch yourself each day because the air will smell like jasmine and the warm breeze will fill your soul at night. I know there are going to be hard days where it feels like something is missing for both of us, but I also know that this distance between us will bring you so many good things that you may have forgotten you deserve. Whenever you are having a low moment or bad day, please remember that this is your dream and you are living it. No matter how far away we are from each other, we are always closer than ever in our twin hearts. I know you will find happiness. I know that the distance between us could never change the way we feel so connected every minute.
I love you and I love your new home.
Love,
twin
Twin, you put our feelings into words in a way I never could have. I’m so lucky to be this loved by you. Each day apart is one day closer to being together again. Let’s find our happily ever after.
ReplyDeleteThis was beautifully written and made me tear up a bit. You guys are the best and I’m happy you have one another, whether near or far apart.
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Thank you so much for stopping by, Amanda. I feel so blessed we have connected with you over the years. You are truly a beautiful soul and you light up the world around you.
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